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Friday, March 3rd, 2006
4:45 pm
hehe
Bi/Slightly Gay
You scored -3 (-52 being completely gay, 0 being bisexual, and 52 being completely straight)
For the most part, you are bisexual. You have a slight preference for the same gender, but either gender would suit you. If you are sexually inexperienced, it is possible that this will change after you do some experimenting.




My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:


free online dating free online dating
You scored higher than 28% on Orientation
Link: The Sexuality Spectrum Test written by tall_man_54 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test
Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
2:34 pm
Friday, January 20th, 2006
10:28 am
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)High
Level 7 (Violent)Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Moderate

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
10:18 am
shane
you are SHANE! the heartthrob of the group, you're
with a new catch every time you go out. you've
got the whole 'sexy' thing down and use it to
get whatever you want, whenever you want it!


Which Character from The L Word are You???
brought to you by Quizilla




ohhhhhhhhhhhh dear
Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
8:17 am
well this will cause some interesting conversations ... lol

You scored 55 Heterosexuality, 40 Homosexuality, and 15 Asexuality!
You are either straight or bisexual (with an interest in the opposite gender) with a moderate to high sex drive.



The higher your score in heterosexuality, the more you are attracted to the opposite gender.



A higher asexuality score means that you place a bigger emphasis on the
emotional aspects of a relationship and less on the physical.



My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 35% on Heterosexuality
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 66% on Homosexuality
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You scored higher than 22% on Asexuality
Link: The 3-Variable Sexuality Spectrum Test written by kitsunechild on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test
Monday, November 28th, 2005
11:29 pm
this is what boredum leads to kiddies
Click here.
Take the quiz.
Post your results.
See sappyskittles's results.Collapse )

Current Mood: artistic
Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
1:48 am
reading amazing poems like this..



If the moon smiled, she would resemble you
You leave the same impression
Of something beautiful, but annihilating.
Both of you are great light borrowers.
Her O-mouth grieves at the world; yours is unaffected

And your first gift is making stone out of everything.
I wak to a mausoleum; you are here,
Ticking your fingers on the marble table, looking for cigarettes,
Spiteful as a woman, but not so nervous,
And dying to say something unanswerable.

The moon, too, abases her subjects,
But in the daytime she is ridiculous.
Your dissatisfactions, on the other hand,
Arrive through the mailslot with loving regularity,
White and blank, expansive as carbon monoxide.

No day is safe from news of you,
Walking about in Africa mabye, but thinking of me.


~~remind me that i need to read more~~~
Monday, November 21st, 2005
12:40 am
I want you to know

that i run to you more than i should
that i fear your opinion more than i should
that i care for you more than i should
that i feel used by you more than i should
that i think about you more than i should
that i push you away more than i should
that i let you control me more than i should
that i want more from you than i should
that i can't look at you
that i can't speak to you
that i can't deny you
that i can't tell you
that i can't feel you
without hearing you say that you think i'm different then the rest
without hearing you say that you might possibly love me
without hearing you say that you care for me
without thinking that maybe you and i might be a possiblity
without thinking that maybe you and i might actually work
without thinking that maybe you and i might make me happy
without thinking that maybe you and i might make you happy
but i don't know how to tell you,
THAT I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yet
no matter how much i think it,
no matter how much i feel it
I can't give you what you need,
I'm not what you want
and you are not what I need.
please just let me stay like this,
let me stay a close friend
let me stay a friend
let me stay around
let me stay... will you please?
Sunday, November 20th, 2005
1:08 pm
Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom

What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart






You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.








Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)


You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.

You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.

You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.

In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.

With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.

As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.

On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.







Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.





You're an Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable
Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
5:51 pm
I sit here alone, miserable, scared and I’m wishing you were here.
I look into the dark and see shadows in the corners but tell myself not to fear.

Time is passing slowly, so slowly, I fear this night will never end.
I’m waiting for you to find me. Won’t you find me?
I know you’re coming. This is what I pretend.

My hands are bound and my feet are tied; my eyes are covered so you can’t see me cry.
My heart, it aches. Have I made a mistake? I believe this is more than I am able to take.

My tears fall steadily now and are dripping to the floor.
I open my mouth to scream for you, but my voice is no more.

My security has left me, my confidence is gone.
I hope you have time to find me before this night is over; before the dawn.

My hands they are bound by the fear you cannot see.
Invisible bonds, self-made chains, I dread this is all I will ever be.

Alone in this world, so little, so scared.
They say death is much worse, but I don’t think it compares.

Am I wrong to put my faith in you? Am I wrong to think you’ll come?
My soul is shaking. My heart is breaking; inside I’m feeling numb.

Whispers around the corner are soft, yet threatening to me.
If they find me before you do, I fear I will no longer be.

They tell me you aren’t coming, that you have left me far behind.
That you never cared, my feelings aren’t spared and uncertainty creeps into my mind.

“They” are the enemy, my insecurities and doubts.
With them eating away at me, I know not what we’re about.

I look into the distance, hoping to see you there.
But you’re not yet in sight, on this long, lonely night, and I fear that you don’t care.

So I look up towards the stars and ignore them as they touch me.
My mind is somewhere far and I don’t feel them creep inside me.

And off in the distance I hear a faint, quiet voice.
It calls to me and tells me that I still have a choice.

If I can choose to put my faith in you and trust that you will come;
my world won’t collapse, my heart, it won’t break and I will no longer feel numb.

My doubts they are drifting, farther and farther away.
My insecurities are shifting, and I look forward to the new day.

I...
Friday, November 11th, 2005
5:09 pm
i'm realllllyyyy blonde now and the shortest my hair has ever ever been but i'm starting to get used to it. Still figuring out if I'm going to go home for thanksgiving or if i'm staying and running from problems at home still. sooooo yeah um new paltz life is becoming interesting. realizing that a lot of people see me as one thing when i'm another while others take me for granted and a ton more just don't know me. its the feeling of not trully having a home that's really starting to get me down.
Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
6:14 pm
WOULD U?
[_] go out with me?
[_] give me your number?
[_] kiss me?
[_] let me kiss you?
[_] watch a movie with me?
[_] let me take you out to dinner?
[_] let me drive you somewhere
[_] cut some rug with me?
[_] take a shower with me?
[_] be my bf/gf?
[_] have a fling with me?
[_] let me buy you a drink?
[_] take me home for the night?
[_] Would you let me sleep in your bed?
[_] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[_] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[_] give me a piggyback ride?
[_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere
[_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[_] lick my cheek?
[_] dance with me?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] tap that ass?
[_] help me with homework?
[_] tickle me to death?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[_] carress my body?
[_] play strip poker with me?
[_] say yes if i asked you out?
[_] borrow a pair of my underwear if yours for some reason got ruined?
[_] let me borrow your underwear if for some reason mine got ruined?
[_] get wasted with me?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?

D0 Y0U...
[_] think im cute?
[_] think im hot?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to cuddle wit me?
[_] want to hook up with me?

ARE WE...
[_] aquintences?
[_] friends?
[_] in a relationship?
[_] gonna have kids?

AM i...
[_] smart?
[_] cute?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] loveable?
[_] adorable?
[_] compassionate?
[_] annoying?
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
[_] odd?

answer these for me
HAVE Y0U EVER...
[_] thought about me?
[_] thought there might be an "us"?
[_] thought about hookin up with me?
[_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] wished i were there?
[_] grabbed me?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] idolized me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
[_] been distracted by me?

ARE Y0U...
[_] done with this survey?
[_] happy you know me?
[_] mad at me?
[_] thinkin bout me?
[_] going to repost this so that i will return the favor
Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
11:17 pm
As you look around this room tonight
Settle in your seat and dim the lights
Do you want my blood, do you want my tears
What do you want
What do you want from me
Should I sing until I can't sing any more
Play these strings until my fingers are raw
You're so hard to please
What do you want from me

Do you think that I know something you don't know
What do you want from me
If I don't promise you the answers would you go
What do you want from me
Should I stand out in the rain
Do you want me to make a daisy chain for you
I'm not the one you need
What do you want from me

You can have anything you want
You can drift, you can dream, even walk on water
Anything you want

You can own everything you see
Sell your soul for complete control
Is that really what you need

You can lose yourself this night
See inside there is nothing to hide
Turn and face the light

What do you want from me
Thursday, May 12th, 2005
10:33 am
for those of you who actually look at this....

it would actually be pretty awesome if you could answer these questions about me i sure it'd bring up some fun discussion

WOULD U?
[_] go out with me?
[_] give me your number?
[_] kiss me?
[_] let me kiss you?
[_] watch a movie with me?
[_] let me take you out to dinner?
[_] let me drive you somewhere
[_] cut some rug with me?
[_] take a shower with me?
[_] be my bf/gf?
[_] have a fling with me?
[_] let me buy you a drink?
[_] take me home for the night?
[_] Would you let me sleep in your bed?
[_] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[_] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[_] give me a piggyback ride?
[_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere
[_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[_] lick my cheek?
[_] dance with me?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] tap that ass?
[_] help me with homework?
[_] tickle me to death?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[_] carress my body?
[_] play strip poker with me?
[_] say yes if i asked you out?
[_] borrow a pair of my underwear if yours for some reason got ruined?
[_] let me borrow your underwear if for some reason mine got ruined?
[_] get wasted with me?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?

D0 Y0U...
[_] think im cute?
[_] think im hot?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to cuddle wit me?
[_] want to hook up with me?

ARE WE...
[_] aquintences?
[_] friends?
[_] in a relationship?
[_] gonna have kids?

AM i...
[_] smart?
[_] cute?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] loveable?
[_] adorable?
[_] compassionate?
[_] annoying?
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
[_] odd?

answer these for me
HAVE Y0U EVER...
[_] thought about me?
[_] thought there might be an "us"?
[_] thought about hookin up with me?
[_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] wished i were there?
[_] grabbed me?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] idolized me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
[_] been distracted by me?

ARE Y0U...
[_] done with this survey?
[_] happy you know me?
[_] mad at me?
[_] thinkin bout me?
[_] going to repost this so that i will return the favor
10:25 am
what the hell thought i'd do tara's little list of non-sense stuff to get my mind off my life

(x) been drunk
(_ smoked pot
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car
(X been to japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been in love
(x) had sex in public
(x) been dumped
(_) shoplifted
(_) been fired
(X) been in a fist fight
(x) had a threesome
(X) snuck out of your parent's house
(_) been caught masturbating
(_) peed on myself
(x) had sex with a member of the same sex
(X) been arrested
(_) made out with a stranger
(_) stole something from my job
(_) celebrated new years in time square
(X) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(_) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(X) been to europe
(x) skipped school
(X) slept with a co-worker
(X) had sex at the office
(x) had sex in a car
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(x) lash out irrationally
(x) went to the movies just to make out in the backrow
(_) Had sex with a stripper.
(x) stayed on the phone all night
(x) pulled an all-nighter 2 nights in a row
(_) Called someone a racial term
(x) Gave a lapdance
(_) Smoked crack
(x) watched a porn
(x) Hooked up with a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend
(X) Went to work still drunk from the night before
(x) Made a "home video"
(_) had a bat mitzvah
(x) been high on life
(x) peed in the pool
(_) taken nude pics of myself
(_) Been swordfighting with real swords
(_) danced on the bar
(x) had a one night stand
(x) thrown up after sex
(_) been caught by partners dad
(x) slept naked
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) saw a shooting star
(X) been to any other countries besides yours
(_) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
(_) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
(_) done drugs
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(x) made out in an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts.
(_) been to a casino
(_) been skydiving
(X) broken a bone
(_) been high
(X) skinny-dipped
(_) flashed someone
(x) saw a therapist
(x) played spin the bottle
(X) gotten stitches
(_) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
(x) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(_) crashed into a friend's car
(x) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(X) Been to Africa
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day
(X) Been to Canada
(X) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) Thrown up in a bar
(_) Eaten Sushi
(X) Been snowboarding
(x) Been Skiing
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
(X) Been to a moto cross show
(_) lost a child
(x) gone to college
(_) graduated college
(_) done hard drugs
(x) taken painkillers
(X) had someone cheat on you
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) had a crush on someone you shouldn't
(_) fucked up school cause of a problem with weed?
(_) own an ipod
(x) own an mp3 player
(x) fancy someone on your friend list
(x) been on a rollercoaster
(x) rode a horse
(x) cheated on someone ( on jeremy when i was drunk in the bahamas)
(x) made out with someone in the back of a taxi
(x) broken something in a fit of rage
(x) gone bungee-cording
(x) gotten sick from drinking
(x) want to have girlsex really badly right now
Friday, April 8th, 2005
12:09 pm
i'm too sober to be a real poet.

Lucid fingers with alcohol tips are the pre-writings of our generation.

And when we all awaken from misunderstood slumber, we find our outfits have become pure fabricated wrinkle.

ideas that leak out just as quickly as they came.

Focusing on paperwork and pressure gauges that
reflect a future I don’t want.
While all others are
Too drunk to love,
too drunk to fuck,
too drunk to even know the difference.
Friday, March 11th, 2005
8:38 pm
its funny how the small things make me so happy.

i gave a pint of blood in ten minutes today
woot to helping save someone's life in a long drawn out i-don't-get-immediate-satisfication-from-it-kinda-way.
but it still makes me feel good just like working at any charity i'm in does.

i talked to erik last night about doing the greenpeace thing that Duke has been trying to talk me into for almost a year.

Pretty much he wants me to take a year off of college and go live in NYC and teach inner city kids and help build this youth center in the ghetto down there so it outta be interesting but i'm not sure if i can take a year off and do like 4 thousand hours of community work but heyyyy we'll see what happens

i'm just going to look toward tomorrow
and toward being in my real home in like 2wks
Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
7:53 am
back
so i'm released and nothing makes you feel at home, then going back to your bed.

Which was invaded by phone notes and mail.

once sifted through you really see how loved you are when you get notes that say,
"You've been fired since you failed to show up to work for 2wks"

and then

"you've missed 17 days of class so you're going to be put in lab"

and the mail just got better

college crap, more college crap, even more college crap, I GOT INTO 4 FUCKING SCHOOLS I"M NOT LOOKING FOR ONE!!!!!, more college crap, bank statement saying in fancy terms "YOU"RE BROKE", more college crap, even more college crap.

the only hand written note that was there stated just this,

"I'm sorry"

nothing about what for or how things might change just simple sorry

guess what?







sorry got me no where. NO. WHERE.
Friday, December 3rd, 2004
10:08 am
Three Cortland County teens were killed Thursday night when their car struck a tree in the town of Virgil, according to state police.

Killed were Frederick J. McDermott, 18, of Sherbrook Apartments, Munsons Corners; and Benjamin Cobb, 16, and his half-brother, Jonathan L. Thorington, 18, both of 26 Grant St., Cortland, said Sgt. Michael Compton of the New York State Police.

A little after 7 p.m., McDermott was driving east on Tower Road near Clute Road when he lost control of a 1993 Chevrolet Cavalier station wagon and drove off the left side of the road, troopers said. The car skidded back across the road past the right shoulder. The driver's side of the car hit a tree, Compton said.

McDermott and Thorington, who was sitting in the back seat, were pronounced dead at the scene, troopers said. Cobb was pulled from the passenger seat of the car and flown to Wilson Hospital in Binghamton, where he died from his injuries a short time later, troopers said.

Speed is believed to be a contributing factor in the crash, troopers said.






don't save me or protect me from these tears of undeservable times but rather hold me as i weep until my eyes flood my heart because this is now 6, six that i've lost this school year alone so please don't tell me it will get better cause its only getting worse so please just hold me and let me cause my own demise and sob until my body can no longer produce tears and it will rain instead...


I wish i had someone to hold me... or even to hug
Monday, September 20th, 2004
11:07 am
just for today, and maybe forever
Today, I won't cry because of its memory. I won't cry until I hear from you. I won't cry until I'm reminded of how I have what everyone spends their life searching for, yet I still am not happy with my life. Today, I'll cry because of how beautiful you make me feel. Today, I'll survive the candle cermony. I'll go through the service dry-eyed. Today I'll console them as we sit at his gravestone, yet not shed a tear with them. Today, I'll be the last one sitting staring at his name carved in that stone. Running my fingers over each letter slowly, M-A-R-C-U-S. It will be like it has been for two years. I'll sit and talk to his grave as if it was him. I'll apologize for being cold and not crying. I'll thank him repeatedly for saving me. I'll attempt to remind him of how important he is in my life yet how I'm still unable to share him with anyone. I'll come home and be reminded why i was at the party in the first place. my family will gather around the table and eat our special dinner in celebration of my dad's birthday. My grandmother will talk with her mouthfull as my aunt waist on everyone. No one will know I wasn't in school, no one will ask. no one will know I spent the day at a graveyard. No on will know I talked to a grave and expected answers. So I'll pass the cake and live the charade. knowing this party is better than the one three years ago. Three years ago today, I watched Marcus' hazel eyes roll into his head as his hand lost its strength and his soul left him. I remember crying uncontrollably for hours, just flat out soul-wrentching sobbing. I remember it being the last time I let myself cry like that. He was the cloest friend, actually I really didn't know him at all. But there was something about him that captivated and inspired me. Something that made me comfortable enough to skip my dad's birthday due to a soccer game, then skip the game to go to a party with him and his crooked smile. I never was sexually attracted to him and I had no desire to date him. Marcus just made me feel the world in a different way, a way I liked. I was thirteen and I wanted to live like he did. Bohemian life, art, words, beauty, it was everywhere he went and if it wasn't he made it. Three years ago today, I watched him convulse in an ambulance as he gripped my hand. I watched him catch my eyes, freeze in them and smile as he spoke gibberish to me. Then froze in silence again, only to come back with "THE FORK CHESHIRE!!!! WHICH WAY!?!?!" Then he laughed at his question as I cried. I watche dhim convulse then suddenly, stop. I watched the machines beep and the shocks into him at last failing attempts. And I watched the medic cover him as I continued to hold his hand. I cried, I sobbed uncontrollably and the medic said nothing. I watched his white sheeted body go in the doors, but I just couldn't follow. I watched the elevator take him downstairs, and I collapsed to the pavement and stared to the sky. Three years ago today, I let myself cry because I deserved it.
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